Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. Psa. 37:4
Two years ago, God asked me to give Him everything, and I agreed. But I have been feeling frustrated lately. Everything seems to be going wrong, just one thing after another, over and over. And I have been discouraged that my commitment to Him did not seem to be enough to enable me to face these challenges with confidence and acceptance of God’s will.
I’m just fighting Him and struggling to make things work out the way I think they should, and making myself miserable! But I realized that I really do want to please Him. I want to be at peace with His will, but I just can’t get myself to do it! How do I accept God’s will when I have a strong will of my own?
And then the answer hit me like a ton of bricks (well, God hit me!). All I have to do is ask! How simple! And yet so hard to remember sometimes. When I first agreed to give God everything and was terrified at what He would ask, all I could think to pray over and over was, “Make me what You need me to be so I can do Your will.” And He actually did that!
Then later He led me to pray, “Make Your will my heart’s desire.” I wanted not only to do His will, but to actually desire it for myself, as if it were my own will, and to even find joy and pleasure in doing His will. And to my great surprise He actually answered that prayer too! But I had stopped praying these prayers, and I realize I need to start again.
Lord, we want Your will to be our very heart’s desire. Make us want what You want. Let Your will be our joy and delight. In Jesus name, amen.