I have been struggling to remain close to God and to trust Him for a while now. Things have been difficult lately, and I have not been handling it well. It’s been hard for me to continue to trust God and believe that He is still working for my good when it doesn’t feel that way.
I have been stuck in a rut for a while now, and I’m tired of it. Though many times before I’ve tried to get out, it only seems to be temporary. Ultimately it has just felt too hard to trust God. But I also realize that I’m making things much harder on myself by pushing away the one Person who could help me and comfort me. I’ve been holding back with him, trying to protect my heart from the closeness and then loss of closeness that follows with the ups and downs. But I realize I need to just go all out and seek to give all of myself to Him, trusting that He will work it all out.
And He gave me a verse for when I worry about not remaining close to him. It was the same as the very first verse He gave me when I was 18 and first saved. I poured out all of my 18 year old problems to Him, and he spoke to me for the very first time with Matthew 6:33, “Seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you as well.” To me that said don’t worry about how all of the problems would be solved but just seek Him. That’s all that matters. So I did! And he gave me that verse again now 28 years later! (Am I that old?…Nah.) So its like, oh yeah, I guess that still applies! Lol.
So if I start complaining and worrying and distancing myself from God again, you can remind me of Matthew 6:33! I’m sure I’ll be needing it!