In my pursuit to spend more time with God, I am finding the hardest thing is to just be still and be quiet before Him. With God’s help, I am trying to turn off the tv at night to spend time with Him and to avoid my checking iPhone in the morning so I’m not distracted as much. Most times I get my devotional and my bible study book read. Sometimes I’ll even write a prayer to God in my journal. All those things are good and necessary. But to actually stop, put everything away, be still, close my eyes, and be alone with God is just plain hard! For some reason I resist it. Well, I know why. It’s satan trying to keep my relationship with God lukewarm and powerless.
But what I realize is that being still before God is the one thing I need most. It’s the one thing that really satisfies me and calms my anxieties and helps me feel like I’ve connected with God. Through it I often sense his love for me and it becomes easier to do everything else when I am aware of God’s awesome love for me. My Christian life goes from being drudgery, walking through my day like a robot, to having God’s life and power flow me through me.
Plus I just plain miss Him when I don’t spend time being quiet with Him! I’ve been better at being alone with Him in the past, so I know what I am missing. Strange that it takes a while for me to realize I’ve been duped into blowing God off once again. I’ve gotten out of the habit and need to seek Him again. I miss being close to Him, being held by Him, experiencing His presence, hearing His voice. I miss Him! So even for my own sake, I need to be quiet before Him more often and realize that by avoiding it, I’m actually short-changing myself more than anything. I need Him, and I need His help to choose to be alone with Him.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matt. 11:28-30
“Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.” Rev. 3:20