Recently I have been making more of an effort to seek God. I had become complacent in my relationship with Him and so have been trying to spend more time with Him. Sometimes when I do this, I am rewarded and find Him quickly. But other times, like now, it seems that all my effort is for nothing. I don’t seem to make a connection or feel any closer to Him and wonder if it’s even worth it. But today in God Calling devotional (ed. by A.J. Russell), it said:
“Walk with Me; I will teach you. Listen to Me and I will speak. Continue to meet Me in spite of all opposition and every obstacle, in spite of the days when you may hear no voice and there may be no intimate heart-to-heart telling. As you persist in this, make a life-ling habit of it, in many marvelous ways I will reveal My will to you…”
God seemed to be directly answering my doubt. I have to remember that my relationship with Him should not be based on feelings, and I need to believe what the Bible tells me:
“The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks Him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.” (Lam. 3:2)
“you will call upon Me and come and pray to me and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you.” (Jer. 29:12-13)
So I think God wants me to persevere in seeking Him, and I will find Him. Things will get better. I just have to wait. Of course satan would love for me to give up now, perhaps just short of whatever new amazing adventure God is about to take me on. So, God, help me to persevere and to trust that You are here, listening, and ready to respond when it is the right time. We love You dearly, Sweet Jesus. In Your Name, amen.