Recently, a friend asked me about one of the things I struggle with, feeling unworthy. (Read her blog here.) One of the ways she described the Christian life to me was “faultiness yet success”. I thought what a perfect way to describe it! I had never heard it put that way before, but that is it! We are not perfect, just forgiven. So I told her about my struggle with this and what God is teaching me:
“I’ve struggled with feeling inadequate too. I’ve learned that I just need to acknowledge that I am weak and when I have failed, like when I struggle with pride. If I adopt an attitude of repentance in my heart, agree with God that what I did or thought was wrong, that is what He expects. In my mind, I picture myself kneeling before Him, admitting my mistakes. And I know He accepts me. I can be humble yet accepted at the same time. I believe what He really wants from us is humility, not perfection. Then we are forced to admit our weakness and our neediness for God.
I’ve really struggled with feeling unworthy, to the point where it was driving me away from God. But I finally got to the point where I understood that that had to be satan. (Of course it is, because his goal is to separate us from God.) So at some point, with God’s help, I just decided to reject those evil voices: “You’re not good enough, you’ve failed again. God has had enough with you…” I just said ‘no, I’m not going to accept it’. I knew it wasn’t God, and I don’t have to accept these lies. I’m still working on this.
God accepts us just the way we are. He doesn’t expect perfection this side of heaven. He loves us because we are His, with all our flaws and our assets. He is not so fickle as to change how he feels about it based on our performance for the day, thankfully! He sees all the amazing things we have accomplished so far through His power, and He doesn’t expect us to be running a marathon when we’ve just accomplished crawling, walking, and talking. He’s just really so thrilled at where we are now and how amazingly far we have come already!
And…God loves us! Just the way we are now. When we accomplish lots or when we accomplish little. Even when things are really bad, and we aren’t able to accomplish a single thing. Even when we can’t walk, and He has to carry us, He still loves us dearly then and delights in His sons and daughters as much as He ever did. Nothing we can do can ever separate us from His love. He is our Daddy and He delights in us!! Because we are His!
‘Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? [satan tries but its all lies. he has no real power.] It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns?? Christ Jesus…is at the right hand of God…interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine?…No in all these things we are more than conquerors though Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death or life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers…nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord!’ Romans 8:33-39
Wow-I really need to learn that verse better. Isn’t that awesome? That is our key to being conquerors and rejecting satan’s accusations, which are all lies, and to be confident that God accepts us completely. Once we accept that, we can experience peace and confidence. We can just relax because we’re not performing anymore for God’s acceptance. We’re just accepted, no matter what. We can accept ourselves, because God has accepted us. Then we can relax, experience joy, and laugh, because we are loved, no matter what!”
My Presence will go with you and I will give you rest. Exodus 33:14